10.20.2011

2011 - 10 - 17 【我們】

夢醒了 我明白 事實也再也無法改變!
昨天把我甩得再痛 我跌的再痛 我也無法 17/10/2011 所有的痛!
我知道一切也在無法回頭!我能做的也只是接受事實!
天啊!幹嘛給我開一個這麼大的玩笑?
我真的無法再故作堅強 地面對大家!
在醫院休養的那幾天 幾乎所有去探病的朋友都為我落淚
通過電話慰問我的朋友也突然的哭泣
我應該安慰朋友們 我沒事 我很好 但我都讓你們哭了!
怎麼啦? 我不是都很堅強的嗎?

我清楚記得事發當天 被淹沒在水里的我 腦海裡出現的都是 家人 朋友 和 某某某的開心畫面!
真的就以為我會就這樣結束了自己 但突如其來的意志力提醒我不能就這樣放棄~
終於被友人救了出去!那一刻 我真的 真的 感恩了!
在不幸中的大幸 我獲救了 但友人卻在這場意外中 離我而去!
親眼看著他們不行的遭遇 我真的感到超傷心的!

我終於領悟到 生命真的真的很脆弱·
毫無預警 ,說走就走!
很多事情 等到真正想去捉住的時候 可能已經沒有哪個機會了!
我想再次聽你的聲音 也再也沒有這個機會了!

12點了!
Facebook 一直在響了 提醒了我今天是我生日!
希望不開心的全都過去 留下的都是好的人事物
長大了 應該更穩定自己了
朋友們 一起加油吧 ~

9.03.2011

3/9/2011

3/9/2011
BENSON 今天你終於飛台灣留學了呀!
真的真的好捨不得你~
今早 送機時 我和BRACEZ說好不哭的
結果 肥子的一滴眼淚 影響了我們的心情
你媽也哭了 我和BRACEZ強忍男人淚
遞上紙巾給你媽和弟 我裝酷 裝冷靜

我一直都沉默 害怕自己會傷心難過
今天我裝得很帥吧? XDD
你要好好讀書呀!
實現你的夢想回來馬來西亞呀!
不能每天夜店
不能學壞
不能逃學
不能泡 妞
不能懶惰
不能賴床
不能再碰酒!

新生活把全部不好的習慣都改了!
很多人都看好你的
凡事不要給自己壓力 盡力就好!
忙功課同時 也記得要照顧好身體呀
別累垮了!

該說的今天在機場都說了
只要你記得你的承諾那已經足夠了!
我們都會想你! 真的真的!
切記2個重大承諾!拜託 一定要辦到!

你是最棒了!
好啦 話不多說
保重啦!新年見!<3

8.31.2011

indescribable feeling

Yeah, I'm exhausted since we are spend the whole day at sunway lagoon today !
feeling so suck now when I'm tried to take a nap but it's failure.
Maybe it is the last night we can spend and tomorrow you gotta leave me.
What Jesus can help on me ?
My feeling is indescribable now !!

Who can predict what will going on tomorrow ?
I do I really appreciated you in the previous every single day.!!
I really reluctant to let you go, but what to do because you gonna study.
Maybe this is the challenge to enhance our relationship in future.
So please be tough and persist in the coming five years, ok ?

I seeing your little piggy face while you sleeping beside me, I would like to shout to the world: I'm so blessed because of you.!!
We faced a lot of trouble before, we solved togather, we cried, but we still believed in HOPE.
HOPE cause we are reunion today ^^

A hug from you, it's warm.
A sentence to comfort me, it's bring me a motivation.
No one will never know how important you in my life.!
Babee, I LOVE YOU !!

You promised me, you will come back to me after five years.
We build up our relationship and a sweet home.
Don't cheat me ok ?
Babee, let your word be your bond.
No matter how tough in the coming five year, remember you are still me always beside you.!!


8.15.2011

This is Life !

A full stop is marked on our relationship in a unexpected situation.
The truth tell me that seduces can against my loyalty.
I don't care about the part of which party did the mistakes, but I concern about our relationship outcome.
Truly to forgive you because i fell in love to you very deeply.

Have you ever remember the moments when we stay together ?
Is kinda joyful and happy even sometime we occured argument or quarrel.
The moments we live together, we solve problem together, we having fun together and etc.
It's memorable for me in my life ever.
The movie we watched together, the bed we slept together, the shirt we share, and the every single moment we hold each other's hand.

I been waiting for you in Low Yat after you work,
We having time for dinner after your work.
The popcorn, gummy, 'gei dak sek', and the food you liked, I remember well.
You gave surprised to me on our 3rd month anniversary, you lend me a hand when I facing trouble, you comfort me when I am sad, you talk the joke for me when I am moody.
Thank you for everything.

The time we went back Johor.
From TBS to Kluang bus station, I feel so warm with you.
Take care of you and accompany you to your mom birthday party.
I felt sad everytime I send you to TBS bus station, cause you gonna leave me.
I could remember I will drop my tears evrerytime you went back, but even it just few days.
I am foolish ^^

A night from clubbing, and I was drunk.
You are the one taking care me from club to home.
Make you troublesome, sorry !

A quarrel for us in KTM station, it hurt me.
I getting appreciated you from that quarrel.
I trying hard to protected you from being bully and cheat by others.
End up, I found my over concern cause you being tight and pressure in this relationship.
I should't force you everytime.
I admited my false.!

Once and once, we recover from being hurt.
I thought that we enhance our relationship to getting stable, but I am wrong.
You lost confident towards me.
Purposely to be make you happy and happy, but end up I make you angry.
I worries the most is make you angry, cause I feel more guilty and heart pain.
It's not that easy to comfort you, but I willing to do so because I love you.

Happy and sad is just between a line.
I choose to be happy even something is happend.
I choose to forget from my sincere heart.
We are not Jesus, we sometime make mistake.
Learning from mistake to make a lessons that avoid we did wrong in next time.
You told me the real, thank you !

Wish to cheer you up, but I am just nothing for you now.
Hope you can throw all the garbage into sea soon.
I am here waiting you to back my side.
I never be disgusted with what you done, hope you thinking so.

A day without you, just seems like a day without sunlight for me.
Very difficult for me to survive.
If case you wanna be back, I am here welcome you anytime ..
Honestly, hope to be continued for our endless love story ever.

You'll be in my heart no matter where are you.
A part of my life is involved you, you are you family member indeed.
I LOVE YOU B.E.K.H ! 5200219

HEART OF NICK !
15/8/2011`
1:35 am !

6.13.2010

NEW

Since a long time I din't updated my blog.
In the few previous months I just busy with my studies as well as working.
What a tired life I have`

Now I at banting.
A place I never came before.
A place bring me a lots of happiness.
I really wish this moment will stay with me forever.
I appreciate this moment with someone.

Got to go now`
always stay with me`

-Nicholas-
` 13 may 2010`

1.30.2010

2 months ~!!



Imperceptible in, two months anniversary ~!!



will be continued ...

- nicholas -
- A & N -

1.27.2010

*p/s: ENDLESS LOVE

I will just remember the happiness you bring to me before, other I just delete from my mind =]

If I never mind, then lose now, should not really mind either !

- nicholas -
- I feel you even when I close my eyes -